All By Myself

I have been adventurous my whole life.

I have performed on stage in front of large audiences, flown little airplanes upside down, dove 70 feet underwater, and flown over the ocean or equator at very high altitudes with 233 people on board. 

Fear is not not in my everyday vocabulary.

Nothing shook me more than sticking the needle in my gut today. Seriously, I didn't know my hands could shake that much. 

And I did it. All by myself. That's a good thing. Especially since yesterday during the teaching Kent flinched as I was about to inject myself. If he's nervous, I'm 10 times more nervous. So, I neglected to call him in for support today. I think he will forgive me.

The needle is the width of a hair and very short. It is idiot proof in execution.  I couldn't feel the needle or the medicine going in. I will get used to this by day 14. It's a gift to learn a new skill. I hope this is one I won't use much.

In other news, walking around with the pack of antibiotics is not as daunting of a task as I had expected. I had one of these portable iv pumps for 24 hrs before I had my last round of chemo. It was so annoying. I suppose I am resigned to living with this one for up to 2 weeks, so I gave in. The trick is remembering it is there in the middle of the night if I get up.

I also had visitors today so the day went by quickly!  Off to clinic tomorrow. Let's hope for a short one!