6 Month Mark

Today marks 6 months since I was first admitted to the hospital. I was in pretty bad shape. But within 24 hours I felt much better. Within a few days I felt almost normal.  I remember the first two days were packed full of "clinical goals" like scans, PICC line, etc. Never a dull moment. I felt like a lab rat.

It's amazing looking back what I have been through. Some things are more traumatic than others. Standing and getting irradiated for 8 sessions, no big deal. Getting prepped for the central catheter placement and having a hose poked up my nose, big deal. Ok... It was in 1/8th of an inch, but that was weird being laid out on a table prepped for surgery.  The lack of control was really present.  Surreal.

Now I find that since I am over the hump and feeling normal, I really don't want to talk about my ailments. I take my pills, I stay isolated, I follow orders,  but I don't want to talk about being sick. I would rather not think about it. I would rather it be gone. I am very impatient.

So, I will blog faithfully, and share with you still, but this is the only time I will dwell in the sickness. The other time I will ignore it and find something else to distract me.  I'm sure it will only be another 6 months and I can get back to "real" life. Whatever that will be.

We are very thankful to all who have supported us so far. A big thank you to Darlene and Carrie for sending over their traditional lasagna and home made bread. It was delicious.

Merry Christmas Eve