What if...?

What if .... . Fill in the blank however you like. There are a million things to think about or stress about, but I remain focused.  Tomorrow we will be presented treatment options, and will make an informed decision.

But that's tomorrow.  Today I am focus on relaxing.  Although the lumbar puncture went well, I have that old familiar pain in my neck and shoulders. Last time I got it after the LP it lasted a week. I sure don't want that, but there is nothing I can do about it except lie down. Or take drugs. So far I don't need them.  Caffeine will help, they say. I will have some in the morning.